Sooo….I’m kind of in my feelings tonight. Thinking about a lot. Like I know I don’t try to be close close with ky friend which is alsom my boyfriends sister because I know we’re friends but lately I’ve been not really jealous but upset that she gets more along with my boyfriends cousins girlfriend than me. And I’ve been thinking about the future othis upcoming yaya. If I get a promotion than yay but at the same time I’ll be lonely. I’ll be lonely in this place. I feel like even if he says he puts me first but I don’t feel it. I feel like I have to wait until he’s not busy. Which i am getting tired of waiting til he’s free. I’m tired of waiting on him period. I love him but I feel like I’m always going to wait on him in anything and everything.
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mmmm mmmm luke bryan ;)
I am finally getting myself on the right track. Work is going great. College is getting better. But now I am focusing on my body. I used to be in great shape. I used to play sports everyday. I wanna get back into running everyday, working out, playing some sport like soccer or softball for fun. One of these days I will try out for a college sport again. But til than I want to work on myself with work, school, my body, family and my love. :D
What am I to do???? I work and work, try to save sooo much money so I can finally move in with the one I love. But having this guilt to where I feel I need to help my parents out to help them and take care of my little brothers and sister is kinda stopping me from saving a lot for myself. I know what I need to save for. I know what to spend on and what not to spend on. I want to move out, I want to be able to wake up to the one I love every morning, and cuddle with him every night. To start something more for me and him is just an amazing feeling. But with all this stress I put on myself, I am starting to get emotional, and its just making me want to cry, and distance myself from my love and even speak. I am silenced a little, I can barely hold a conversation because there is only one thing I want sooo bad and its to live with him. I mean, is that wrong?? I stay over there basically everyday, and I have a key to his place. And it’s enough, but it’s hard to leave and go home every time I know I have to leave. (sigh) I am just so emotional right now :’(
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